Ramblings of a Sorta Single Mom

BRIAN.  Yes, he’s coming back.  UUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH    Those who know who he is know exactly why I respond that way.  Those who don’t…..well lets see.  He’s the one that nearly everyone I know says we’re meant for each other.  There’s a reason why we always come back together after a break up.  The reason we go to each other first when something is wrong.  Yes, even when he comes back from under way guess who he calls first…..me.  Not his girlfriend.  So sad right?  And he’s coming back this way next month.  I got an email from him on Saturday letting me know that he’ll be back for his 5 year college reunion.  And….yes he’s bringing his girlfriend so I’ll get to meet her.  And yes I’m NERVOUS!  Why???  I haven’t seen him in about 3 years.  We talk often through IM, email, and on the phone but face to face it’s been so long.  Not to mention he has the other half that he’s been dating a year.  So it should be interesting.   Any one else want to add their bets that him and I will finally end up together when we’re 60???  LOL

No, I haven’t gotten a 2nd job but after today I maybe i should consider it.  This morning J had her dentist appointment.  Only the 2nd time she has been and the last time she screamed through almost teh whole thing.  I was optimistic about today though.  All weekend I talked her up about how he would look at her teeth and make sure they were nice and shiny.  So this morning she was all excited to go and I’m thinking it will be a smooth trip.  All was well till just after I snapped a pic on my camera phone and then it went down hill from there.   Although it wasn’t that bad.  I had to get up next to her and help convince her the suction thing wouldn’t hurt her.  That she wouldn’t drown with the water squirter and the brush would only tickle her teeth.  We saw some tears but for the most part it wasn’t the screaming match it was last time.  On a good note…by the time she was done she didn’t want to ge tout of the chair!!!!   Kids, go figure.   

Its taken me a few days to post the blog but I’m finally getting around to talking about J’s first day of school.  wow, I think it was way more emotional fo rme than her.  Well, no thinking about it….it was.  She was all geared up and so excited to finally get to wear her shirt and badge and carry her backpack.  Who knew those things were once so exciting.  LOL  Anyways, we made it to the bus stop and when her bus got there she just went crazy!  She was the first in line to get on and didn’t even look back to say good bye or give me hugs & kisses.  Of course that just tore at me but I know for her it was just the excitement.   As the bus pulled away I had more than a few tears in my eyes.  Actually, it was the wrong day to decide to wear make up.  the day actually went pretty quickly.  I intentionally scheduled a ton of stuff so as to keep me occupied and not dwelling on her.  It worked to.  I remember glancing at my clock at one point and realizing it was just after 2:30 and she was just getting otu of school.  The day just flew by.  When I picked her up after work she was so talkative.  Going on and on about her teachers and the activies during the day. What she had for lunch and nap time.  Everything.  She was so talkative before but it was usually about what ever she happened to see at the moment.  Now, she is relaying events.  It’s pretty cool!  Today was day 3 and so far so good still.  At least no bad reports from the teacher coming home.  tomorrow is when their folders come back with any paperwork, projects, teacher notes, etc. so I’m interested to see whats in that.  But all in all….obviously it’s not the end of hte world when your toddler goes off to school for the first time.  It only seems like it!!

Showing off her name badge:

 

 

It has finally arrived…Jayden’s first day of school.  For the last few weeks we’ve been talking almost like drilling for the big day.  Reading books from the library, visiting the school and her classroom.  The only thing she hasn’t done is ride the school bus but she gets her chance tomorrow morning.  I’ve been going over and over it with her though.  About sitting quietly in her seat with her hands in her lap, no yelling, listen to the bus driver, etc.  Everything I can think of.  She recites it to me perfectly so hopefully she understands.  Honestly, she probably understands way more than I give her credit for.  I’m honestly just not looking forward to tomorrow morning.  I fully plan to have my camera waiting for when she goes so i can capture the moment forever.  Not that it will ever be erased from my memory.  the vision of my baby girl getting on the bus for her very first day of school ever.  Seriously, it really does get easier right?

So yesterday was the big day.  The Rock N Roll half marathon here in town.  The one time of hte year you can get 22,000 people out of bed before the crack of dawn to go running.  And yes, there really were that many people there.  The whole event is kinda crazy.  Even though there are like 300 port a potties you gotta wait in line for 30 mins because of how many people there are.  But once you finish the race….it truly is an experience.  One I know a couple people who read this would rather pass on!!!  I finished it yesterday though.  I was no where near as prepared as I wanted to be.  With everything that had been going on in the last month my running kinda took a side burner.  I sqeezed a few short runs in here and there but not enough to be where i wanted.  amazingly though I did better than I thought, finishing right around 2 1/2 hours.  The one I ran in March I finished in 2:12 so this one was slower but not by so much it was embarrassing.  I’m already gearing up to do the Shamrock (march) and Rock n Roll (September) again next year.   Ultimately I want to finish at least 1 in under 2 hours.  This was my 3rd half marathon and so far my lowest time was 2:12.   I think there’s a barrier there I just need to cross to push myself and make that shorter time.  I’ll make it though.  One day…………….    In the mean time I’m hobbling around the house recovering.  Some people don’t realize how running that far can take a toll on your muscles.  Yesterday it hurt to walk as my hip joints were so sore. today, it’s my abs.  Can you believe running affects your stomach muscles??  Who would have thought.  Give it a couple days though, and I’ll be ready to ge tout and tackle it again.   LOL