Ramblings of a Sorta Single Mom

I swear guys sometimes can be so dense.  Well maybe not sometimes.  I probably should lump all guys into one phrase but honestly, with the exception of a small handful…..they are dense.  This morning I had an “arguement” with this guy i’ve been chatting with for only a short time.  I ran into him online and we had a lot in common and hit it off pretty well.  I don’t mind meeting new people online.  I’ll IM anyone as long as they don’t start offending me or getting all graphic and stuff.  Seriously, if a guy asks me how big my boobs really are in the first 10mins….they are not someone I want to talk to long term. They are only after 1 thing and this store is closed.  haha   So this guy i’ve been chattin gwith was cool.  Until this morning that is.   That last few weeks I’ve been crazy busy.  working tons of hours and when I’m not working I’m sleeping.   I mean, working from 7am to 11pm would wipe you out too wouldn’t it?  Needless to say I haven’t been on my various IM’s lately.  It’s to distracting when I’m trying to get things done.  The last few days I’ve had to use my laptop at work b/c my desktop caught a virus and goes pop up crazy.   I guess my IM logged in automatically b/c this guy pops up with a message about how if I really didn’t want to talk to him then I should have said so and not let him think that i wanted to.   “what???”  I know I haven’t been online much but i do have a cell phone with unlimited texts.  He has texted me several times and I always respond.  I may not respond righ that second but I’m a texting queen and I ALWAYS respond.  Ok ok….there may be a couple times i don’t.   Now with this guy, I would respond to him and then he would never respond back.  Did he expect me to just keep messaging him over and over with out getting anything back from him??  I’m not a big fan of one sided conversations.  Anyways we got into it b/c he was making comments about how it shouldn’t be so hard to meet someone and all that.   I’m a single mom who has no family in the area.  i already pay daycare during the day, sometimes I just don’t have the extra money to pay someone so i can go out at night.  Not to mention it’s next to impossibl eto find someone last minute.  Most everyone else has made plans of their own so planning in advance is a must.  Also, I’m exhausted these days.  So really, I just dn’t feel like it.  Yet he tried to make me feel bad about all that.  Seriously…they just dont’ get it!!  And I think I’m going to add him to my list of ones that I’m not intereste din long term.  If he can’t have patience or understanding now………I just don’t see it going well for the future. 

J is exerting so much independence these days it’s almost impossible to help her with anything.  She was always a fairly independent child.  This morning I wasn’t allowed to dress her in anyway.  She wouldn’t even let me wet her toothbrush.  i was lucky I got to be in charge of putting the toothpaste on it!  Bath times are just as bad.  She’s determined to wash her hair all by herself.  I guess in a way i should be lucky.  I know some people with kids who still want them to do everything.  I’m now free to take care of other things too.  At the same time though, it’s just another reminder that she is growing up.  Before I know it she’ll be locking herself in her room.  Wait, she already does to a point.  She doesn’t even want me to watch her get dressed!  The sad part….she’s not even 4 yet.

Well today is the day.  The day it becomes just more of a reality that my baby girl is starting school in the fall!  Three hours of filling out paperwork, meeting teachers, touring the school, etc.  Her first day is officially September 4th which is less than a month away now.   Where did the time go??  I’m watching her color as I type this.  So intent on staying with in the lines and doing a pretty darn good job of it.  Even alternating colors on the fancy balloon, long past making everything all one color.   She asks nearly every day if it’s time for school yet.  I get the impression she can’t wait to start.  Me??   I could wait!  Thank goodness though the days of random snuggles and hugs/kisses are still here.  Monday night I took her out for dinner and while we were in the booth she would just slide over and snuggle up into my side as she munched her food.  Makes it kinda cramped for me but who would complain when those moments don’t seem to last forever?  At night she have a funny little routine where we give BIG kisses and BIG hugs and we do the “I love you this much” thing where we alternate making our arms bigger each time.  I wonder now….how long will she want to do those things?  it really does just pass you by so quickly.  Before you knwo it these tiny little people are growing up and going on their own!  Haha…list to me.  She’s going off to preschool and the way I’m talking you would think she was heading to college already. 

*Sigh*

Tonight we had oen of the worst storms I’ve ever seen roll through the Beach.  I haven’t seen that much rain or wind since hurricane Isabelle made her appearance.  Even then I didn’t get to see much of it since I was tied down to a hospital bed while my little girl made her grand entrance.

Anyways tonight was just a freak storm.  First I’ve never seen hail here.  Tonight we had it!

I was also probably the only person standing off their patio with a video camera running!  Keep your sound on because the blast in the first 15 sec was amazing.  You can clearly see where it startled me.  The only thing you cant see is the lighting that had hit not even a second before the thunder. 

 

 

Jaydens birthday is coming up next month and I’m already starting to try and plan and get ready.  Our budget is somewhat tight so I gotta plan as far in advance as I can.  Jayden wants to be a princess so we’re going to use that for the theme  I’ve got tons of stuff on my ebay account to watch for favors, invites, decorations, etc.   One of the girls in my mom’s group made a tiara cake and posted a pic.  It looks pretty simple so I’m leaning towards duplicating it.  Here it is. 

Think I can pull it off??? LOL  i’m thinking I may just get a cheap tiara from the dollar store to put on top.  Not entirely sure about the bows or how those are done so we’ll see.  I gotta get teh directions from her so I can check difficulty levels.    Jayden also got an awesome prinncess dress up chest from grandma for christmas, she she already has a fwe outfits she can pick from to fit in.  And, depending on how many we invite maybe she can share with some of the other girls.  I’m thinking though I can find maybe a little crown for the boys and tiaras for the girls.  And maybe little “wands” for them as well. 

I’m goign to see if our condo association will let me set up tables/chairs right next to the play area that is next to our building.  I could save with not having to rent a location and it’s close enough people can come in the house for bathroom and to escape the heat.  We’ll see though.  If we only do a couple kids then maybe we’ll just cram everyone into the house.  LOL  

SO I’m avioding my work stuff and was googling thank you poems.  I came across this one found HERE…

Thank You

To those of you who laughed at me, thank you.
Without you I wouldn’t have cried.

To those of you who just couldn’t love me, thank you.
Without you I wouldn’t have known real love.

To those of you who hurt my feelings, thank you.
Without you I wouldn’t have felt them.

To those of you who left me lonely, thank you.
Without you I wouldn’t have discovered myself.

But it is to those of you who thought I couldn’t do it;
It is you I thank the most,

Because without you I wouldn’t have tried.

Heidi isn’t the only one getting bargains today.  I had to work till 1pm so afterwards jayden and I headed to a thrift store that I love.  I wanted to see if they had any fall/winter stuff out yet b/c I’m in serious need of pants for her.  The girl is in 5T pants at not quite 4 years old because of how tall she is.  I just can’t bring myself to put her in jeans that are too short just because they fit perfect in the waist.  Luckily I’ve found a belt she can manage pretty well.  Really she does fit 3T pants in the waist, and sometimes even a 2T b/c she is so tiny that way.  But length wise her 4T pants are almost to short.  So, we hit the thrift store and unfortunatelyd idn’t find any pants.  But I did find a very cute Osh Kosh rain coat for $2.  Perfect condition and should hopefully last her through the year.  A good pick for her starting school in September.  I also scored 4 shirts, a skirt, and 2 pairs of shoes.  My grand total.  $6!!!  Yes, I love this store.  Sometimes I only walk away with a couple things and other days I find tons of stuff. 

On another note I also had to do some grocery shopping.   I had a bit more left over in finances this payday and I decided to use that to really stock our pantry as to be honest, it’s been pretty bare lately.  In the old days I would have had tons of coupons to use and our Krogers always doubles up to $.50.  If your patient you can score soem great deals.  Today however (since I haven’t cut a coupon in months) I decided to venture to the local Save-A-Lot store which is actually 1 block over from the thrift store.  Purchased 65 items for a grand total of $60.  The only meat I got was some hot dogs and some smoked sausage as we already had beef and chicken in the freezer.  But I stocked up big time on canned veggies, canned fruit, dry goods etc.  I actually had to organize the pantry to get it all in there.  My freezer is also packed full as I also hit the discount bread store.   Needless to say we should be good for quite awhile.  Although I want to follow Heidi’s food storage example and always have the extra on hand.  I have a better set up in this new place for storing it so hopefully it will be easier. 

Definitely a good day today!

 

Thats how many DVD’s I have.  I can full a1 full 5 shelf book case and 3 shelves on another one to store them all.  And I just finished putting every single one of them in alphabetical order!  No, I’m not one of those obsessive people that must have all the labels of their canned goods facing forward.  I do like to have my DVD’s in order though so it’s easier to find what I’m looking for.  At least when I know I’m looking for “Just Married” I know the shelf it’s on rather than looking through possibly 7 shelves to find it.  At our old house I always tried to keep them in order to.  Having my sis and all those kids there though made it nearly impossible.  My sis was famous for not even puttin ghte dvd’s back in their cases.  When we moved I swear I found nearly 20 dvd’s just stacked up, and the cases on the shelf.  Good way to ruin a DVD right!   So anyways, thats my blog for today.  Wasn’t sure what to think of anything else!

Yup, I still blush when a guy is blatantly flirting with me.  Even if it is over the telephone.  I have a client who has several large policies I manage.  One of them is the single largest policy I’ve ever written in the 8 years I’ve been in insurance.   Can you imagine sending someone a $10,000 bill for a policy??  Yes, you read those zero’s right.  LOL  Anyways, I had to call the owner the other day for something important but b/c I’ve been traveling a lot I used my cell phone and left him that number.  Today he calls me back and starts talking about how he thought I was calling to give him my number so he could take me out to dinner.  Then he proceed to ask me!!  I seriously turned every shade of red and the man couldn’t even see me.  I’m 27 years old….I shouldn’t be responding like a giggly teenage girl.  I should be used to things like this.  Of course it didn’t help that my coworker figured out what was going on from my side of the conversation and proceeds to start laughing and making little comments while I’m on the phone. 

Needless to say no dinner date was set. I think there’s probably an unwritten rule somewhere about not dating customers.  Especially ones with very large accounts.  I could just see it going really bad and then having to explain to my boss why that policy is suddenly leaving.  Not my idea of a fun event. 

I see this guy on a regular basis though so we’ll see how it goes.  He’s actually pretty cute and always like to make me laugh.  Either way, it was still flattering to be asked out.  Even if I really shouldn’t accept. 

I haven’t blogged in a few days mainly b/c work has consumed all my free time.  Literally here’s a break down of my day.

• 6am alarm goes off and I’m out of bed
• 6:30-7am checking emails and running a end of day report for work
• 7-7:30am shower, dress.  Get Jayden up and dressed. 
• 7:30 out the door, drop her off to coworker (we started a carpool of sorts..more on tha tlater)
• 8am-5:30pm work in office.  usually consists of 100 calls with questions on this new system, answering emails.  dropping everything when my boss calls with questions etc.  also handling any appointments and trying to sqeeze in my normal work.  hasn’t happened so far.
• 5:30-6:30pm picking up jayden and my coworkers kids, dropping the other kids off at home and then coming home. 
• 6:30-7:30pm  make dinner, eat, put dishes away while Jayden plays with her toys a little.  give her a bath, read a bed time story and in bed by 7:30.
• 7:30-midnight  working on any normal daily work I didn’t finish in the day, answering more emails, fixing any problems in the new system to prepare for the next day.
• Midnight going to bed…can’t stay up any later and my eyes are usually drooping anyways.

 So thats it.  And trust me, that time while I’m in the office is crammed full of stuff.  I had to leave yesterday for a meeting and when i got back I had 15 voicemails and 10 emails waiting for me.  I could barely get through those with out getting interrupted with other things.  Now for me, this really isn’t normal.  not in my office location.  We can keep busy but not this constant barely even above water things thats going on.

I know I’m just exhausted.  My body is harder and harder to pull out of the bed in the morning.  And after working so many long days….I’m just plain getting burnt out.  I’ve debated on requesting a day off around Labor day and makign it a 4 day weekend for me.  Maybe go somewhere with Jayden if I’ve got the extra funds.  Maybe a last getaway before she starts school??   I dunno.  I just know I can’t go at this pace forever.  Something going to give and I hope it isn’t my sanity!!!